She had been rescinding her thoughts up, Twisting her memories off her mind. Now , she is in a cage. Trammeling everything from her. She hadn't  been wishing for anything But to be able to live without hurting. A wish that only went against nature, Created an abyss of despair. The flowing agony strengthened. The... Continue Reading →


To only you.

To:Mr.President :') I have told you how dark chocolate is my greatest love that it can turn gloomy days to all the sunshine of summer. And if you don't remember, it was coffee and sandwiches over breakfast I realized I should give us a try. That morning, you kissed me goodbye but it felt see-you-again... Continue Reading →

Would you rather..

Anger. Does it just really refer to the intense negative emotions that we feel over one person or could it mean something more than that? Back then when we were young, we are already taught how to handle our emotions properly, to not let our anger go over the course of our actions. Even now,... Continue Reading →

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“Attachment is the great fabricator of illusions; reality can be obtained only by someone who is detached. ” ― Simone Weil. If only attachments were as easy as adding or discarding a file in our mail composition! But nope, attachments are the wallow baggage we carry everyday. This isn't about you being clingy or a... Continue Reading →

Wasn’t ready.

First of all: I'm sorry. I'm sorry for pushing you away and for hurting you so much. I'm sorry for being so insecure to the point where you didn't know how to deal with me. I have to tell you some things about myself that I didn't have the courage to tell you before: I... Continue Reading →

I’m done.

I'm done with the sad songs. I'm done with the goodbyes. I'm done with the memories that repeatedly played in my mind. I'm done with the longing. I'm done with the cries. I'm done wiping all of my tears by the pillow-side. I'm done with the hoping. I'm done with the pain. I'm done with... Continue Reading →

My high walls.

You who have always been torn between wanting to open up and not wanting to be broken by betrayal anymore. You who have always been at the brink of an existential crisis. The one who has been doubted; The one who has been falsely judged; and The one who has always been left behind. This... Continue Reading →

The ending.

I am the Moriarty of this story, a story without a Sherlock. It is my story, of love, life, disappointments and more of the morbid. But it is left without an ending. It is the ending that makes the story. Without that, it does not make sense. Every word, every emotion that is expressed; it... Continue Reading →

The one that got away.

I saw you. Your wide radiant smile, was painted all over your face. Those beautiful eyes I used to adore, were still as beautiful as ever. The way your curvy lashes moved, when you blinked, still made my heart flutter. Your towering height was still intimidating. But the comfort it gave me before, just because... Continue Reading →

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